A wall closet in a residential house in the United States. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
But I have horrible and lingering doubts about whether or not I will be able to ever have a significant relationship with a heterosexual man. I know this is paranoid thinking, but is it?
I don’t know or meet a lot of age appropriate men that I would want to date in my social or professional circles. So like a lot of people in my situation I turned to online dating. Match.com, OKCupid and eHarmony, and I have to say…..I seem to be a closet case magnet. Something about me must be attractive to man who is not quite sure of his sexual orientation, or is trying desperately to cover it up. Is it my sassy personality? My blonde hair? My obnoxious stage persona? I have no idea.
So far I have been extremely passive on the sites, I usually don’t go out looking for men, instead I wait for the men to come to me. I get anywhere from 1-10 emails a day. Out of the men that have emailed me or “winked” at me I have seen the following…..
Photos of them dressed in the following
- A feather boa
- A tiara with a feather boa
- A skirt or dress
- Women’s wigs
- Pink Leotard - And oh yes this one is completely true, it was a ballroom dancing photo and he looked quite happy wearing it.
My favorite profile is another man’s description of himself (I edited it a touch to protect his identity)
Wow. Laughing (in a terrified sort of way). I talked about in my book how all of the men I dated after my ex seemed more gay than he was. Although I do have a theory (having to do with pheromones, DNA, and the subconscious and whatever the hell else) that we all attract the same types over and over again… I also think that I just simply would not have noticed any “gayness” in any of these men pre gay fiance. Now I notice it in everyone. Kind of like how when you break up and suddenly hear your song everywhere….